Untying The Knot And Tying The Tubes?

So everyone has told me that 30 is supposed to be fabulous.

I'm still waiting...

So far 30 can go for a stroll into the woods and just stay there. Well, I kind of take that back. Not all parts of 30 are bad. I am as happy as a clam personally, it's just all the things that keep happening around me, trying to burst my bubble that can go take a hike. Trying to untie the knot and officially be divorced has been the biggest challenge since turning the 3-0. The big D is supposed to be finalized in a matter of weeks, but now isn't looking that way. Oye, for the love.... I just want it done. We have been apart for long enough now that still being wed legally is like a reoccurring nightmare that makes me unable to move on with certain parts of my life. So by the time it's actually done, I will emotionally be so far removed from it, but on paper, the ink won't even be dry yet in some peoples eyes. It is what it is I suppose. Hopefully it's finished before the girls go to college. I'd actually like to be, dare I say it, friends with my soon to be ex spouse one day. I've known the man over half my life, so having it be this way is really the last thing I ever expected. I now see why people throw themselves a celebratory "I'm divorced" shindig! I will just probably grab a bucket of chicken with some oh so classy box of wine and go sit on a beach somewhere...but hey....who knows when that day will come.

I also didn't expect to have my longest relationship EVAH come to a tragic end at 30. My Jenny the Jeep (which has recently been named Smokey.) That green machine has been my ride or die for 9 years! We've done road trips, had a few very minor accidents and murdered some street rodents together. I lost her once on 6th ave too. She drove me to the hospital for both my labors. It was the first big girl purchase I ever made on my own to celebrate a promotion I had just received at work. You'll be greatly missed.

I 'm laying the foundation to a new life for the girls and myself and I guess in order to do that, everything must go! A garage sale of the mind and material things if you will. A good friend told me (in so many words) when all of this first started that I would be fine and come out ahead, but that things will have to get mighty difficult first. Boy was she right! Everything she has ever said has been spot on so far. The woman is truly gifted when it comes to her predictions, and if that's the case, I am beyond thrilled for my future! A great thing about 30 so far is simply just caring less about what others think. I'm happy, my kids are fantastic and I have strong friendships with so many wonderful people. All other things will just fall into place when the time is right. If it doesn't, thank goodness for fermented grapes and carbs!

However, one of the biggest shockers of 30ness so far happened when I was at the Dr's recently. I was just in for a routine check up and the Dr. starting talking to me about birth control. As we were discussing different options from what I currently have, she said............WELL NOW AT YOUR AGE AND WITH YOUR EXTREME FERTILITY, HAVE YOU CONSIDERED TYING YOUR TUBES??!! What the what? "At your age?!" I'm 30! I'm fairly certain I just felt my ovaries shrivel up and request to start cashing in on social security after hearing her say that. It's not that I plan to challenge the Duggar's and have a bazillion kids or anything, but still...