A TALE OF TEETH, A NAME AND LACK OF MOTIVATION.

I am quickly learning that this 5am hour is prime time for my blogging. Right now, sitting on the computer is the only thing keeping me away from the fridge! Sure I could go and eat, im pregnant. If I did I wouldn't consider that my breakfast and I would repeat it all over again once Kaelyn got up and acted as if it was the first thing I have had all day. I will stand strong. Computer it is!

My mom once told me that nothing will compare to having your first child. Meaning...none of the other children you have will compare to the first. For a hot second I thought she was telling me "don't worry honey, I like you better than your younger sister." Something that anyone with a sibling wants to hear from their parent. You win the most liked contest! That was not her point, and now that we are gearing up for #2, the nameless one I am starting to see her point. Of course I am excited to be a mom again, ecstatic actually. It's just that well...all I can think to say is- been there, done that.

Case in point- The nameless one...My child will be here in 3 months and still has no name. Well the family calls her "Baby Tahoe" which I am quite sure doesn't need to be an inside joke to just my family. We were in Lake Tahoe this past September, baby will be here in June. Anyone with half a brain can figure that out! I don't want to be in the delivery room, pushing and yelling come on baby Tahoe!!We need a name!  Kaelyn's name was picked out the day I peed on the stick. Seriously. Although, her name was picked because we liked it I will give credit where it is due, Aaron picked the name.And if we wanted to break it down and make her feel special when she asked why we picked that name we could easily tell her well... KAE is your mama's middle name, the LYN in your first name is for your god mama Heather's middle name, and even though she spells it LYNN we figured she wouldn't mind if we changed it a bit. RAE is for your Auntie Ky's middle name.Yes folks, I have 2 sisters and all of our middle names rhyme. Mae, Kae, Rae. I will be more than happy if we just come up with something to name Tahoe, other than Tahoe!  This name thing alone makes me understand what my mom was telling me years ago.

When you are pregnant the first time around it's all you can think about. How will the room look? How many times can I wash and re-fold all of the baby clothes and place them in the dresser just right only to take them out a month later when I get another nesting urge and repeat the process again, possibly numerous times. Having all the outfits for his/her first major occasions picked out. Meeting family, first trip to Target, the next upcoming holiday after the birth. You daydream about taking them for walks in your new travel system that hopefully some family member bought you because those can be spendy! (thanks Dad) What will their first word be? I think you get the picture here... It's all you can think about, you drive your non parent friends crazy by talking about it all the time and you don't care!

(Hang on...Toddler awakening..what the heck it's only 5:15! To be continued, hopefully sooner than later................. Departure 5:15am. Return 7:30am. Apparently, after a little snuggling to get the tears to stop she tells me shes crying because she "fawted." Her exact sentence was "Mommy I cry cause I pooped, I fawted, I tooted a nugget and I want daddy." Oh well. Duty calls.)

Her waking up in the middle of me trying to get some "me time" is a prime example as to why I have done almost nothing to prep or plan for this new baby. I thought I was smart by getting up at odd hours. Trust me, they know! They know it and they wait for the right moment to snatch you away from taking 5 minutes for yourself. It's a dirty little game really but that is an entirely different topic.

I have a friend who has a kid Kaelyn's age and she is also pregnant. Our due dates are very close, about a week apart I think. We will call this friend "Alexis" I really don't think she would care if I revealed her true identity, but since i'm not sure she gets a fake name. Now Alexis has almost everything all planned out, correction- not planned out, done! She could give birth right now and be good to go. I am sure if you ask her that she will say there is no way she is all set to go but if you ask me she could have 3 kids from now until ours is here and still be more prepared than I am! Clothes are hung in the babys room, there actually is a ROOM for the baby with real baby furniture in it. Craft projects are either done or at least planned for when they will be done. She posts these cute pictures with her son holding a poster that says how many weeks the baby is and how big baby should be. They have a name! Need I say more??? I have sorted all of Kaelyn's old clothes along with ones my kind friends have given us into bins and labeled them. That is it! We still have to turn our guest room into Kaelyn's new room before little Tahoe can even think of having her own space. I started using Alexis as my timeline for when I should get things done, determine how many weeks along I am since I seem to forget and for just simple inspiration to get with the program! With Kaelyn I was glued to the What To Expect When Expecting book. I knew what fruit she looked like every week according to that book. Aaron and I would sit and read it together. Now I wait for Alexis to post a picture of her adorable son with all the info I need to keep me on track with what our baby should be that week! If she lived in this state I am sure she would be knocking at my door so she could start my baby intervention and get me going. Shoot, I need one.

Maybe it is this way because we are having another girl? Maybe I am the only one that thinks this way and all you other parents are going to think I am a horrible person. I really don't know! How can I be so excited yet have no motivation to get things done. I have a baby book full of pictures and journal entries my mom used to write for me, my sister doesn't have that. My mom saved old outfits I used to wear, the hair from my first major haircut. Maybe she is saving that for her retirement to cash in. Shoot, red hair is like gold right! Ha! The only thing I know she saved from the both of us, besides school work, is our teeth. Yes, our teeth. I get a baby book, journals, clothes and hair. My sister gets teeth! Our teeth used to reside in a blue and white shot glass on the shot glass wall at my parents house. It was always very funny to see who grabbed that one to use as a shot glass. The family knew that one wasn't up for grabs but we would never tell company, they needed to find out on their own.

So even though I am suffering from lack of motivation this time around, and there is a good chance I will have nothing ready by June. My mom was right. I know for a fact that even though most of Kaelyn's first year was somewhat blurry due to sleep deprivation there are parts of that time in my life I could never forget and that is part of why nothing will ever compare to it. I was a new mother, a new wife with a husband in a different country for the first year of her life. It was just us. I took some time off of work when she was about 7 months old and we went to stay with family in Colorado. Planned on staying for 10 days, stayed for a month and a half. That memory of being with my grandparents and family for so long will always be in my top 10!

I get that there will be new memories once Tahoe is here but most moms, and I know this will be me, run the risk of forgetting which kid did what down the road when you are trying to relive certain memories to embarrass them. Which is why one should always try and document such events but in reality, you may not have time.I just hope Kaelyn and Tahoe know they are loved with every fiber of my being. Even if one ends up with all the important things saved and the other one only gets her old teeth.